I've never been good with goodbyes. I used to cry when our helpers left. And nothing much has changed now.
Our current all-around is going back home to care for her kids. She's trustworthy but we're not very fond of her. She can be annoying sometimes. She spends most days dillydallying just waiting for the hours to pass her by. Her cooking is inconsistent. Her cleaning leaves so much to be desired. She keeps on going back to her province for a variety of reasons. She's forgetful. She's easily confused. My husband and I talked in the past that it was really okay if she wanted to leave because she will not be that big a loss. Our yaya actually does more work than the all-around. So we should be rejoicing, right?
Well, part of us is relieved because we can start anew with someone who will hopefully be better. But part of me is also sad because whatever you say, she's been with us for more than a year (the longest so far among our helpers). She knows the routine. And she loves our little boy. She's seen him grow up, somehow. She was there when he turned 1 and 2. I can see that she genuinely cares for him even if she can't seem to get to his good side when he's cranky. She will fight for him. She even spent money on getting him a really nice birthday present.
So, yes, part of me will still feel bad when she leaves tomorrow. I'm still grateful for all the things that she's done for us despite the negatives I listed above. I guess that's really how it goes. You learn to love whoever loves your child. And I know the little boy will miss her and will look for her. I just hope he's still too young to remember. And I hope I'll raise him to have a better way of coping with goodbyes, that he'll learn that life goes on and people come and go.
Our current all-around is going back home to care for her kids. She's trustworthy but we're not very fond of her. She can be annoying sometimes. She spends most days dillydallying just waiting for the hours to pass her by. Her cooking is inconsistent. Her cleaning leaves so much to be desired. She keeps on going back to her province for a variety of reasons. She's forgetful. She's easily confused. My husband and I talked in the past that it was really okay if she wanted to leave because she will not be that big a loss. Our yaya actually does more work than the all-around. So we should be rejoicing, right?
Well, part of us is relieved because we can start anew with someone who will hopefully be better. But part of me is also sad because whatever you say, she's been with us for more than a year (the longest so far among our helpers). She knows the routine. And she loves our little boy. She's seen him grow up, somehow. She was there when he turned 1 and 2. I can see that she genuinely cares for him even if she can't seem to get to his good side when he's cranky. She will fight for him. She even spent money on getting him a really nice birthday present.
So, yes, part of me will still feel bad when she leaves tomorrow. I'm still grateful for all the things that she's done for us despite the negatives I listed above. I guess that's really how it goes. You learn to love whoever loves your child. And I know the little boy will miss her and will look for her. I just hope he's still too young to remember. And I hope I'll raise him to have a better way of coping with goodbyes, that he'll learn that life goes on and people come and go.
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