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I Love You

The past few days have been exhausting. Our helper left because of some health issues. We got someone who comes in once a week to clean the house and we have our clothes washed by a laundry shop. But of course there are still some things to take care of and they can be tiring. Work's been piling up a bit too. Add to that my homeschooling tasks and the demands of taking care of a toddler. Plus I got a bad cough. You would definitely get one monster mom.

I admit I have not been very patient with the little boy. And I regret it most of the time. But sometimes I just can't help but take things out on him.

Yesterday was extra challenging. My husband had to go to the gym so I was left to do all the morning tasks by myself. It was already 11 and we have not started our lessons yet. I had dishes to wash, clean clothes to return to the cabinet, new stuff to sort, etc. R was asking me to find a toy and I just got so pissed with his impatience. I might have raised my voice.

I found his toy and decided to cool off a bit before starting our lesson because I don't want to be a terror teacher. I fixed the new printer inks we got in the shelf while cooling down. R asked me to check something he wrote on his magic sketcher but with a reassuring statement that I can do it when I'm done fixing the inks. When I was done, I checked his note and it said "I *heart* you." And my heart just melted. He didn't know how much that statement meant to me. How that statement relieved me from all the stress and exhaustion I was feeling. I apologized to him for being angry and explained to him how I was feeling. He thoughtfully said that maybe the stay out helper can come in more often so that I won't be so tired. Awww. I cried in front of him and we hugged each other.

He was such a sweetheart the entire day. He helped me wash the rice, slice and cook our luncheon meat dinner, and sweep the floor.

I thank God for reminding me that all these tiring stuff are worth it because of R. :)

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