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New Year, New Beginnings

Over-all, 2012 has been a good year for me and R. We started our writing gigs in January and it's still continuing to date.

In February, I left my full time job. Although the work load was manageable, the emotional stress was not. So after working for them for 11 months, I decided to leave. I focused on the writing gigs instead.

In May, I received an offer for another full time job. I was on the verge of accepting it when I stumbled upon an American law firm that had an opening for a Philippine lawyer to work from home. I ended up working for the US firm. I enjoyed working from 5 am to 1 pm, Mondays to Fridays, and have the rest of the afternoon to lounge around. Well, not really. I continued the writing gigs in the afternoon.

In June, I was offered the position of a Visiting Lecturer in a polytechnic abroad. Of course, I accepted it. I have always been curious about what's it like to live and work in another country. Since I was allowed to bring the hubby with me, I took the job. I started in September and my contract will expire after 1 year, with possibility of renewal.

My colleagues and my students have been great, in general. Of course there are some challenges, but most of them have been manageable, so far. Admittedly, I have bouts of homesickness, which peaked during Christmas time. It was nostalgic seeing everyone's Facebook posts about their celebrations and the food they're eating. I'm hoping that this shall pass once classes resume on Wednesday.

I look forward to 2013 despite the anxiety and uncertainties I'm feeling. I am anxious to know if the school will renew me. But the even bigger question is, do I want to be renewed?

My husband and I love it here, no doubt about that. It's safe. Public transportation's efficient. I walk to the school. We're together. We're private. We can control the "un-necessaries" in our lives. But I wonder if we can do it for the long haul. When we've visited all the interesting places, will we still enjoy our weekends? How long can we stand being away from our parents and families? Even the thought of our home and the places we use to frequent make me tear up. Do I want this kind of life for my children? Should I just go back home and practice law the way Tatay does? Pero kaya ko ba? The hubby tells me to focus more on the benefits so I won't have a hard time deciding.

I can only pray for enlightenment when decision time comes. God must be tired of having a fickle-minded kid like me. But I don't regret moving around. Life is a never-ending quest of finding our happiness. My professors used to say that if it's necessary to have revolutions all the time until we find the perfect set-up for our country, then we should do it. You should never settle. I guess the same goes for me. Bahala na ulit si Jesus. So here's to a happy 2013! :-)

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